Like St. John of the Cross in his celebrated opus, “The Dark Night of the Soul” is a very long and overwhelmingly distressful period of awakening and purification that is the total opposite of the Bliss phase. It is a long and bewildering confrontation of all sort of spiritual wounds Carl Jung coined as ‘shadows’.
Like most of our favorite sins, concupiscence, one of the darkest and dirtiest desires we badly need to eradicate. For the reason we undergo purification and purgation of the soul in its entire detail and density is to remove or at least embrace and be reconciled with all our shadows, as we brought it to the lime light.
This period of sharpening the soul is our darkest nights. Here I learn gratitude that both pain and suffering are different but both are blessings. In gratitude, I heal my self and talk to my inner child for the first time. I discovered that he is my higher self, the authentic ego-less me, who is in the heart of God long before I was born.
With these, I became a better and sharper spiritual being. Here I develop a wider and bigger opening of my heart Chakra that in my meditations can encompass the whole world, or the deep space I fly by. But very truly, this period is tremendously horrible. Sometimes, during my sleep it feels like I’m fighting demons and hear slaughtered and evil voices leading me to contemplate the thoughts of suicide, like schizophrenia.